It's been a while......

since I last updated. So, what better time for an update then...the hour of right now!!!

Ever since I found FVTC was doing Les Miserables this fall (okay, that whole linky thingy was kind of hard and I, being myself, just yelled at the computer) I have been putting myself through anxiety attacks based on me not getting in, people not doing well and the show being a disaster, etc. etc. etc. and that is not fun. I think the main point of my anxiety is the fact I did not a solo or duet in Mega-hits.

Um, so, summer is upon us....and I am off to bike-ride because me, being myself (again), could not come up with a single interesting thing happening lately. Oh, wait! I am seeing Wicked again in August..!!! YayyYYY!!!iiii!!!!

:o)

Morals in "Les Miserables"

A long week, less schoolwork to do and getting your feelings hurt by a "friend" all contribute to deeper, more complex thinking. What with me trying out for the show next month I thought alot about the individual characters and the show as a whole, and the lessons taught in it.

For instance....

Jean Valjean is a convict sentenced to jail for stealing a loaf of bread. He stole it because his sister's son was near death; he broke a windowpane and grabbed the loaf from the windowsill. Understandable motive, no? I suppose; furthermore, Valjean's decisions many times benefit a certain party but not another. Such as, during the French Revolution Javert disguises himself and almost leads the rebels into a decision that will, most likely, lead them to their death. But he is found out and Valjean asks that he take care of Javert. Instead of killing Javert, which would most definitely benefit the rebels, he lets him go in order to spare Javert--and honor God.

" VALJEAN
We meet again.

JAVERT
You've hungered for this all your life;
Take your revenge!
How right you should kill with a knife!

(Valjean cuts the ropes which bind Javert.)

VALJEAN
You talk too much,
Your life is safe in my hands.

JAVERT
Don't understand

VALJEAN
Get out of here.

JAVERT
Valjean, take care!
I'm warning you...

VALJEAN
Clear out of here.

JAVERT
Once a thief, forever a thief
What you want you always steal!
You would trade your life for mine.
Yes, Valjean, you want a deal!
Shoot me now for all I care!
If you let me go, beware,
You'll still answer to Javert!

VALJEAN
You are wrong, and always have been wrong.
I'm a man, no worse than any man.
You are free, and there are no conditions,
No bargains or petitions.
There's nothing that I blame you for
You've done your duty, nothing more.
If I come out of this alive, you'll find me
At number fifty-five Rue Plumet
No doubt our paths will cross again. "


Which led me to Javert....Javert is a man who believes that once you are the path of good or evil you cannot stray away towards the other. He doesn't believe in redemption nor forgiveness.

" He knows his way in the dark
Mine is the way of the Lord
And those who follow the path of the righteous
Shall have their reward
And if they fall
As Lucifer fell
The flame
The sword!"

Now THAT......

http://cteelgin.com/LesMis.htm
.....is enough to make me happy.



Which is vital as I'm VERY disappointed since it looks like I am not getting a song to sing during this show. I feel like it's unfair and I feel like I sing way better then those that did. Oh, that is an awful and vain thing to say, but right now it's true. *sigh*

P.S. I think I will sing "Think of me" from Phantom of the Opera for LM auditions but I am not sure. It is a good song for my voice, I can sing it well and the style of the song matches LM's for the most part; my only concern is that it is too popular and they will think I wasn't choosing a song for my voice. I don't know, I just don't know :oP

Just some random notes....

So I've just been relaxing, doing really nothing these past few days....which eggs on thinking about this and that and here is the result of that quiet pondering.

• Tonight is the first Mega-hits of the 60's rehearsal. Well, not exactly, it's actually a meeting. It is also my friend's 16th birthday, he is in the show so I can give him a Mickey shaped lollipop tonight and ask what it feels like to finally be "free" LOL! Yay! Happy Birthday Mark :-)
• Oh, so my Pastor's sermon was remarkable yesterday; as his sermons always are and I got quite a bit of knowledge from that one. Such as, you should aim yourself, your actions and your life in its entirety towards the Lord; and when you desire something, even if it is good, never let it overcome your desire for the Lord. Oh what valuable lessons I learn from simply going to church every Sunday and I couldn't get through the week if I didn't.
• I made out my dying wishes :oP Which sounds silly for a 14-year-old to do, but as I've learned from the blog Hannah and Lily (see left) life can be short and can end at any time.
• Mother's day is coming up...hmm. No money in my pocket naturally dah-ling, but I have to do something as though my Momma does things here and there that tip me off she's my Mum and the things she does for me!

• School is nearing to an end and I am ecstatic....but melancholy as I am nearing the end of my 9-year homeschooling run. NINE YEARS! And here I will be in a completely different environment with people I don't know!! I will miss my Mom of course...but I'm happy I can finally make new friends and be with people more on a day-to-day basis.

Ah so....I know my posts have been kind of uninspiring lately....but summer is soon to come and with it, LOTS AND LOTS of new things to do and then SCHOOL! I will have a lot to talk about then, just not much time to do it in :oP

I wish you all a great week :o)

New name and layout, and other thoughts for today

As you can see, I renamed and chose a new template for my blog. I thought the name fit, since I love broadway so much (Dancing through life is a song from Wicked)!!! :o)

• Tonight I have solo callbacks for summer show. I am excited but nervous. Wish me luck :o)
• Today I worked on the dirt in which I plant my seeds. I tilled the soil and picked out every single weed, rock and stick. So, I only got a 3'x4' rectangle done but hey, it's a start?!
• Spring is definitely upon us. Though the last 4 days have been chilly today was lovely and I am incredibly grateful for the end of the cold, cold Illinois winter.
• My Trivium Co-op only has two classes last and I am so happy. I liked the classes but the end of them means summer is coming. SUMMER!!!!!!!!!!!!
• Nothing much happening here, except simple life. :o)
  

It's all over....

Placing Out ended today. Was I sad? A little. But! I come bearing good news! But first, you all have to endure a slew of irrelevant pictures taken today at random. Lucky you!!




And if you're wondering about the fish....his name is Leonard!!

The good news is: this fall the older kids are doing LES MISERABLES!!! For those of you that don't know, Les Miz is my FAVORITE broadway show--and, I know alot of shows! :oP

The only issue is, I have this agonizing fear of not getting in. Sure, the odds of it are slim since heck, I've been in the theatre, devoted and focused for HALF my life--but the odds are still there and it's driving me CRAZ-AY!!!!!!!!!!!

Ah, well, if it's God's will, Les Miz here I come! :o)

Friends

I've had friends who have treated me bad, and some who were my saving grace.

Today I had both.

Oh, WHAT would I do without those friends, who will except me for who I am? Who will actually go UP to that person who made me cry and tell them off, even though they'd get "the hand"???

WHAT?!?!?!?!

Anyway, today was the first show! It went well, though I didn't enjoy it as much as I should've. Oh, well. Tomorrow is opening night, and, the cheering audience will make me feel better, as always.

"There's no business, like show business, like no business I know...."

Where I'll be this weekend

Okay, I am really bad at this blog thing.....

Hehehe. Well, Spring Break took out its full meaning on me and I neglected to post birthday/easter photos. Oops! Though actually I didn't know we were going to my aunt's house directly from church, therefore, I didn't get the camera. Again I say, oops! :o)

Well, I had a good birthday--Mom and I took the train downtown and walked to Marshall Field's (yes, I know it's called Macy's now but I'm not taking part in that change. Ha!) where I found the most gorgeous chandeleir (pic below) and then went (dun dun dun) to the Oriental theatre and saw WICKED. More on that show below. Enjoy the pics!

The official birthday celebration and my birthday pie :o)

I hadn't put make-up (or anything of the sort) on and I'm wearing my oversized (warm, because it's still FREAKIN COLD. Grr!) Canada sweatshirt BUT I had to show blowing out candles, duh!

Scenes from the train:

and of the city:
And that pretty chandelier (I want it!)

And the camera died before I could get a picture of a Wicked poster....ARGH! Just my luck right? :o) BUT the show--wow, it was GREAT!!! I had obviously heard so many many good things about it and had pretty high expectations, and they were fulfilled. Everyone has to see this once in their life--the costumes, the set, and the MONKEYS!!! I sure did love the flying monkeys. :o)

Happy happy birthday, from all of us to you....

I can't believe I'm 14. WOW.



Last thing I ate:
Cheddar Sour Cream Ruffles

Last thing I drank:
Bottled water

Last song I listened to:
One Day More - Les Miserables

Last movie I watched:
Phantom of the Opera

Last show I saw:
WICKED!!!!

Last T.V.

show I saw:
American Idol

Last person I hugged:
Evan, my brother

Last person I talked to:
Owen (Laura, my sister)

Last game I played:
Mario Party.

WOO! I WON!! TAKE THAT, DK!!!

Last show I was in:
Mulan

Last thing I said:
Thank you Lord, for getting me through 13 great years with a great family, great friends and a great life!

And then--I'm 14!!!!!!



I'm such a drama queen :oP

Well I'm tired now BUT tomorrow after all the Easter hullabaloo I'll have plenty of birthday & holiday pictures to share with you all....and to tell you how awesome W*I*C*K*E*D is!!! See it!!!

St. Patrick's day

Today was kind of a down-ish day, actually. I don't know what's been up with me lately....I've just been, well, I don't know. But....I'm not here to complain about teenage hormones....no, tonight's rehearsal was far more interesting....and green!! :oP

Pictures of friends, small and big:
Gracie and Elena...now aren't they cutie pies? :o)
We're all decked out in our green attire! :oP (He did get truly angry with me for snapping all those pictures of him; I think that's one thing that caused my down-ness.) I so wish I had brushed my teeth better....

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Laura got a new car!!!! :oD



Isn't it so adorable! Yes heck knows Owen WORKED for it LoL!!!
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This is extremely random (well, this whole post was actually) but I can't get over Annamarie's laugh....it's just, well, interesting....the word "goat" comes to mind,,,,,,just watch the video, okay?

Oh, the guilty pleasure of time-wasting surveys....:oP

Eight interesting facts about me:

1. I could not--I repeat, could NOT--live without the existence of broadway shows. Seeing them (when I have the money :oP) and listening to the music. Especially Les Miserables. Oh the MAGIC of that show!!! I've grown up with the music and STILL it gives me chills when Enjolras says, "Until the earth is FREE!!" LoL! Other shows I love are Phantom of the Opera, Wicked, Mamma Mia, Hairspray, Aida, Annie, The Lion King, the list goes on and on.....

2. I have a strange guilty pleasure--coordinating outfits on paint. Baby outfits, little girl's outfits, outfits for my age. (and what's fun about that is actually getting those items myself!) It's so weird but I LOVE it! Whenever I'm at the mall I wander into the little girl's section while my poor mother and sister look away and pretend they don't know me LoL......

3. I've caught a 6 inch long and wide frog with my bare hands out of this pond:

I know. It's revolting. And that was last summer when I was 13....hey it's my blog I can write what I want to! LoL

4. While no cell of my being likes being truly sad or melancholy, I am addicted to sad books, movies and music. Like Les Miz you know? My brother asked me the interesting question: "Would I rather laugh or cry when watching or reading something?" And I chose the latter! Of course, pointless and unheroic deaths just make me plain old depressed, like Titanic.

5. I suck at sports and I'm proud of it. WHOO!

6. I've already planned my wedding right down to the appetizers at the reception. :oP

7. I have enormous amounts of sarcasm. However, my sarcasm-sensing meter is not anywhere near on track. It's embarrassing when someone jokes with me and is met with a monotone face as I can't tell when someone is kidding or not. LoL!

8. I make up and write life stories about each and every character I play in musicals. It really does help you get into character.

Wells...I was going to do ten but I couldn't think of any more so I guess I'm just a boring person.....LoL.....okay like, I totally NEVER say LoL! (See #7)

I just love this theatre TOO much

I have practice almost every night Mon-Thurs. For 2-3 hours. And you know what? Despite the fact so kids my age prefer to hang with me and I may start school (homework!) next month, I LOVE IT!

More on the kids-my-age thing. Argh. Ugh. Argh ugh. It's all for the reputation--the adults see that I don't blah blah blah all the time and it's better for me and my (hopeful) future career in the long run.

And yes, I may be entering school next month Anna and Rachel! Christian school, since Maman isn't letting me near the same types of kids like those of whom she works with. LoL! Well, just so long as I'm not unsocialized or anything....LoL!