My life hath endeth

The camera - the digital camera. It's broken.

I know.

All together no....NOOOOOOOO!

I mean, I'm totally not dramatic or anything...


Without my main source of entertainment (well, second main - the computer [internet] actually takes the cake) it only prolongs the wait until. the. cast list. is. posted.

Somebody sedate me until Sunday...the 'expected date'...SUNDAY!! Please, please please!

Oh well...Daddy is being so nice as to take me to Dairy Queen for good eats...it should help. A little. Meh.

I wish you all quiet, peaceful weekends.

How'd it go?

For inquiring minds, Les Mis auditions, for me at least, went great!! Luckily I wasn't so nervous as I thought I'd be, and I pulled off my song as well as I could back here at home. They had us read a monologue that was so entirely Eponine-esque. Hah hah :o) I had a lot of fun with it...

Tonight we start our second weekend of shows - have a good weekend, everyone. ;o)

Rainy Days and Mondays

I am vain - but I have to say. These are awesome.

Ade and I caught a frog!
We named her Ivy. Is she not gorgeous???

Tonight....it's tonight.

The auditions. The LES MISERABLES School Edition auditions.

I've been waiting for this. For. so. long.

And it's finally HERE!!!!!!!!!!

Naturally since I want this so bad...I'm terrified. For me, that's saying alot. I mean, seriously, this is what, my 20th audition?

Wish me luck. And a bit of guts as well. Lol.

Busy weekend!!!

I should be getting ready for my second show tonight, but that can wait.

Last night was opening night. It went great!!! The audience was wonderful - probably the best one I've ever performed for. Ever!!! They cheered ecstatically after every single song. I can only hope tonight is just as good!!!

Except yesterday and today I've been hit with an enormous headache that has been doused with copious amounts of Ipuprofen. Which is good, but I still have a sense of light-headed-ness and that really affects how I dance :sigh: All I have to do is push past it, I guess.




The premonitions haven't dissipated completely, but have decreased. I'm thankful....it was really affecting my performance. I mean, really.

And maybe it isn't a premonition...but more of a foreboding feeling. Maybe it's due to the stress of the week/end. I don't know. But that's not something I should be focusing on right now, the show must go on!!!

Premonitions

YES I know it's all in God's hands and YES I know he controls everything, but honestly, this is terrifying.

It's happened before...with dear, sweet Ray (although for him, that was a WONDERFUL thing to leave his wheelchair-bound body and make his entrance in Heaven and meet the One he loved so dearly when he was on earth) and then, I'm not sure if this counts, but a pet. I know the feeling. It pulls and nags at me, and it won't go away. And now, it's back.....

What, oh what should I do? What CAN I do??? If I tell him will he resort to the Christian part of him, and say well it's all in God's hands? Or will I ruin the rest of his life, whether it be shorter if I'm right or longer then the longest age if I'm wrong?

And what if I'm right? What if he does die?

How can I live with that?

Will I ever know if he even liked me? Could I ask one of his friends? He gossips. Heck knows he does. But will they tell me? Or will they lie, because they don't want me to live with the hurt that I wasn't good enough and that I never, ever will be? How can I know if they're telling the truth???

Why do I have so many questions?

Why. What if. Why why why WHY. WHAT IF.





I hate this....

R.I.P. Sweet Katie

Unfortunately, Katie the Possum died yesterday. :o( Kat doesn't know why.

Despite that sad bit of news, I have happy points for today:

• Six Flags Friday with Adrianna and Sunday with Evan.
• The shows this weekend!!!!
• Les Mis auditions next week.
• Eponine didn't wake me with her squawking this morning. Yay!
• Me and Ade's videos. Watch them if you get the chance - we had such fun making them!